Overwhelming Pancreas Flare

I am probably on the wrong thread but I can't quite bring myself to post on Rainbow Bridge just yet.

I came to MLF because my old Collie (Bess) with extensive arthritis as well as her dodgy pancreas had had an amazingly positive response to Librela - I did not think we would get her through the Winter because her movement was so bad and I wanted to share the impact this amazing treatment had had on her.

I think it gave me a lull in what had turned into my full time worry about her - also, one of our Cane Corso's (Athena) had a splenectomy and the biopsy had come back positive for liver cancer. My focus was diverted to Athena while she recovered as we had to watch for internal bleeding.

You know when you look back and know your dog was trying to tell you something and you thought they just wanted a cuddle or some bally ? Well Bess had been doing that for a week or so, still eating and doing all her usual stuff, still moving great. She's always covered pain up really well, very stoic. If I had noticed anything last week it was that it was taking her longer to get through her food. Knowing this could be a warning symptom that a pancreas flare was on the way (we have got through two huge episodes before), I went back to my full time scrutiny of everything she did, including poo watch !

Saturday morning, she did not actually finish her food - red flag, off we went, straight to the vet.

Check up, blood test, scans followed and the x-rays showed her stomach had swollen up hugely - it literally looked like a massive grapefruit. My vets got great instincts and she felt sure without the blood results back from the external lab that it was her pancreas and started treating her accordingly. She was x-rayed Monday morning and her stomach was back to normal - result !! We continued to treat her for a pancreas flare because we know she is susceptible

Today, Bess stopped being able to walk - the lethargy has overwhelmed her and her body cannot manage the pancreatic flare. She is in pain.

She is a dog that has always had to be free - free to move, free to do what she chooses, to feel alive. She is not a dog that can fade away, sitting in a bed, content to just be awake and with us. Plenty other of our 8 dogs can do exactly that without being ill - just not her.

So the time has come and tomorrow she is being put to sleep.

And my heart is breaking. She is and always will be, my Best Bess.

So I came here where people understand.
 
Oh @Orange I'm so sorry for you, we do understand here and you have absolutely, done your very, very best - but also had the most difficult decision to make for Bess, because you know her, love her, and understand her more than anyone else possibly could.

The hardest choice but the most important one we have to make. Sending hugs, we are here for you if you want to talk xx
 

Naya

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I’m am so sorry for you and for Bess. She sounds like she is an amazing dog who has lived a good life with you and her other doggy friends. Will be thinking of you tomorrow :hug:
 

Lab_adore

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I am so very sorry @Orange, it is heartbreaking to read your post; but you have done absolutely everything you could for your beautiful Bess. Most, if not all of us have lost beloved pets and we have our arms around you virtually to help you through this incredibly difficult and sad time :hug:
 

Cath

MLF Sales Coordinator
I am so sorry for your pain, but you are doing the right thing for Bess. I will be thinking of you and Bess tonight and tomorrow :hug:
 
Oh @Orange I'm so sorry for you, we do understand here and you have absolutely, done your very, very best - but also had the most difficult decision to make for Bess, because you know her, love her, and understand her more than anyone else possibly could.

The hardest choice but the most important one we have to make. Sending hugs, we are here for you if you want to talk xx
Thank you.

I think because her stomach went back to normal I thought we had caught it early enough - she nearly died the first time she had a flare and it took weeks of intensive care by us and the vets to get her through it and that was two years ago. It was always an uphill battle from then because she is a cunning food thief and has despised her low fat diet since the first attack.

We got through the last two and I thought we had diverted this one - but its not to be.

I am staying up with her tonight listening to her sleep and her breathing is faster and more shallow than it should be and she has quite a lot of Contramil on board.

It is the right thing to do - I just can't bear to think of the gap she is going to leave in my life. She is not our largest dog by a long shot but she easily has the biggest presence (especially as she is noisy and knows time - no-one has been allowed to sleep past 8am for 6 years).
 
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