Kate, I hope you are ok. I know what you are going through; it's a devastating time. It's over three months for me since I lost Poppy and my Mum, and to be honest the blanket of grief is only now starting to lift a little. Grief is part of love, and you just have to manage it as best you can. You can't hurry it, nor should you. I hope that the better weather lifts your spirits a little, as well as seeing Reuben a bit happier. Merlin has just started to cheer up too - I think the good weather is helping us both as we can get out more and do more adventurous walks and work in the garden. Well, I do garden work, and Merlin sits nearby and sighs if I dont play with him or give him treats...