I look at photos and videos of Axel every single day. Sometimes I get tears welling up but usually I’m pretty good at just smiling through it. Tonight for what ever reason, one picture sent me over the edge and it’s like all the emotions I’ve been holding back all came out at once. This picture has no real significance, and isn’t even that great of a photo, but for what ever reason it unleashed so many emotions


I feel like I’ve been in denial, like he’s just away getting better right now, or at his puppy sitters house for a bit, and it’s like it’s only just hit me tonight that he’s not coming home ever again, at least not in the physical form. I’ve never felt pain like this before
this was the picture I came across tonight. I took him out for a drive down some backroads. We had just gotten out here for a little sniff around
