Rourke Rest in Peace

Emily_Babbelhund

Mama Red HOT Pepper
I sobbed for you & Rourke yesterday & today, and realised I was sobbing for Scooby & Belle too. I will probably sob tomorrow too. Please don't feel alone at this awful time x
I agree. I was so sad to hear about Rourke for Sonia and had a good old cry. Then had another realizing that it brought back all the memories of the days after Duncan and Brogan died.

Sonia, I know we all grieve differently, but you’re never alone in wanting to scream, yell, cry, and however else the grief comes out.

@Kelsey, what you did sounds really familiar (and normal) too. I still cry over Brogan pretty regularly if something sets me off, and it’s been 9 years. I don’t think we ever really stop grieving, it just becomes something more livable and easier to pull up the good times to balance out the sadness.

And (i sound like a broken record) but talking to Brogan, Duncan, and Jodhi continues to help me so much. Especially when I first had Carbón, I had some serious conversations over why Brogan sent me such a (at times 😉) naughty Señor and it was his way of saying, “See, bet you appreciate more now how well I did my training and didn’t try to climb on top of your head during my first plane rides!” He was having a good old doggie laugh at me for sure.

And before Carbón came , a lot of my solo walks weren’t really solo, as Brogan still came along. I used to point out to him how much easier he was to get into a crowded area now that he didn’t have that pesky body. It was weird and sad and funny, all at the same time.

Ok, now I probably sound completely unhinged 😉, but I swear it helped, and continues to help because I STILL talk to them. We have to do whatever gets us through, right?

@Jelinga Are you doing alright with being able to eat and sleep enough? I hope you’re taking care of that side, which can be hard too.

:hug:
 
@Emily_Babbelhund , didn't eat the day he died, felt sick so only ate cereal the next two days, will try and eat this evening. I go to sleep about 1am and wake at 5. I will make sure I get my strength back and eat healthily soon.

I feel you pain losing Duncan and Brogan because you are so close to them, I will try talking to Rourke. I had the horrid thought earlier that perhaps Rourke is missing me and I don't want him to suffer that pain. Quite mad.
 
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